Things I like today.

My collection of unread books, gives me hope because I know I will read them.

My puppy dog, he is so cute and knows how to cheer me up, he is kind of a dork and really goofy. His brother is equally funny.

That the sun was out today.

Being distracted with facebook and other social networks.

My biggest wish is to hear my dad’s voice. And then I remembered his voicemail, I called it and it made me smile and sad at the same time.

My Dad

Each day at work I would call my dad around 3 to 4 pm just to check on him. I would ask him pretty much the same thing and we would either end up in a conversation about whatever is going on in the news, the dogs or how he was feeling. Then there were days like this when the weather was bad and I would call him to ask him is it raining over there? His reply "no. is it raing where you're at."

It is the smallest thing that just brings the wave of sadness. I miss talking to him and seeing him and whatever else goes with loss. But I have to come clean some how because I am doing an excellent job of hiding it.

The name of this blog

Has become so stupid to me. I wanted to just post stuff I like and things that make me happy but so far nothing. It has been three weeks since my dad passed. And I know people say it gets better with time. But they lie. Or at least you have to get pass that stage of he's not here any more. So that the mental suffocation can stop.

And yesterday was a bad day, because I just thought at random let me call my dad to see how he is doing, and realizing I couldn't. It about floored me. And I was at work. Crying at work...not good.

I wrote this to my friend the other day we both made twelve wishes for the New Year and these were mine:

My 12 wishes:
1. That everybody stays healthy.
2. Specifically my mom and grandma.
3. That Major and Chief stay cute and never run away.
4. That you guys get your wishes.
5. That luck is on my side more often.
6. That work doesn't change as far as programming or whatever.
7. The writer's strike ends
8. To win the lottery.
9. To actually get my garage in order.
10. To be more creative
11. To write more.
12. To get through this.

And I got one of my wishes. My Aunt and mother cleaned my garage for me. It was awesome.

December 17th

My father passed away at around noon on December 17, 2007. It has been hard to accept this, because there was some hope that things would get better. I loved him and I know he loved me and I have no regrets that anything wasn’t said. He is missed.



Dalton E. Alexander, passed away on Monday, December 17, 2007 at the age of 66. Mr. Alexander was born December 13, 1941 to James and Lucille Alexander in Hubbard, Texas. He was a BMCS in the United States Navy and retired after 25 years of service. He also retired from Chase Bank where he served as a Security Officer. Mr. Alexander is preceded in death by his father, James Alexander, sister, Sara Alexander and brother, Jimmy Alexander. He is survived by his loving family which includes; wife, Gloria Alexander, daughter, Elizabeth J. Alexander, mother, Lucille Alexander, brothers, Carlton Alexander of Whitney, Texas and Daulton L. Alexander of Burleson, Texas, sisters, Nelda Kattner of Waco, Texas and Peggy Morris of Whitney, Texas and many other relatives and friends.